Steady My Heart.

 Ash Wednesday (today) marks the start of Lent. I usually give up something "typical" - chocolate, sweets, treats. However, the only motivation behind it is losing weight/being healthier and given my last post I've decided that this year I won't bother (especially as I always just set myself up to fail!). Instead, this year I'm planning to read my Bible more during the time coming up to Easter as it's something I'm not very good at spending time doing. I'll let you know how that goes... Got a lot of stuff that I need to do at the moment, being unemployed is time consuming! I need to ring the JobCentre as they haven't rung me yet, their 48 hours ended over a week ago! I also need to contact student finance and make sure they don't pay me any more money and send a letter confirming that I'm intermitting due to illness. Then there's the job applications. I am so so bored of rejections but I must persevere. I'm not sure what's wor...

This week is Eating Disorder Awareness Week and the theme for 2012? Breaking the silence. This may not be an easy read and believe me, it's not easy to write! Over the years I've had lots of experience with eating disorders, both supporting friends who've been ill, but also as a sufferer. Something that many people (particularly back in Torquay) don't know about me. So here I am, breaking my silence. I've always had an all-or-nothing relationship with food. I can go for days eating barely anything but take me to an all-you-can-eat buffet and I will practically have to waddle home with my food baby. It's hard to admit, it feels completely humiliating but I LOVE FOOD. And you will be hard pressed to find an eating disorder sufferer who doesn't. It's taken me many many years to believe that it's okay to enjoy food and it's something I still find hard today. Eating disorders are manipulative and ugly, they make you do things you would never dre...